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2010-11-18T21:20:00.001+08:00

Baby,can you not go back to US?

2010-11-07T16:19:00.010+08:00

Last week i got the opportunity to join the Halloween celebration with my cousin's pack. The role is simple,we dress up as "ghost",go around and scare people. The idea was to make the visitor feel scared and terrified as they walk around the museum.

Great layout,i must say. The first time i went it,i felt the eeriness surrounding me. Tickets was affordable. If i remember correctly,it was $7 for children and $12 for adult.

Wide range of costumes available for us,too. Among the Hollywood characters are freddy kugger,hannibal lector,predator,alien and saw.

I chose to be the character of a zombie. It all went good as it was the easiest character to act. I just walk with my feet dragged on the floor and my hands hanging perpendicular to the floor. A great response,too. People come close to me and tell me their thank you's for taking picture with them and how much they like my costumes and how i act out as a zombie. Of course,i feel appreciated!

I would like to thank Aljhi and Hong yi for being volunteer for the museum of horrors. Though it was long hour,we had much fun!

2010-10-30T17:55:00.001+08:00

Yo I get respect any way,
I can flow any way,
Yo you rap about yourself, man, who are you anyway?
And douche bag,might I say,
I'm Mister magoose status, change twice a day,
Any beef with me,you let me know, I'll be there right away,
And when I'm rhyming, I've always got the right of way,
I got some dudes that'll come down here right away,
To take your ass right away,
Believe me you could die today.

I really mean it..

2010-10-29T19:14:00.002+08:00

Up to date,i have skipped 3 lessons for each module so far. I try to question my lack of discipline for what has happened. Unlike semester 1,I only skipped 2 lessons only. I hope this won't go on further and that i'll be the best of the health in the upcoming lessons. Skipping lessons has it's pros and cons. the pros being,you can rest at home but the cons is the worst. Lack of idea on how to solve the problem,and you have no idea what has been discussed in class which will be beneficial for UT.

So,a note to self. Not to skip anymore lesson,yes?

On another note,I hate guys who act like they are matured. The matter of fact is,they have not even completed their National Service. So,with that being said,your buah is still small. Grow some leg hair and come talk to me. Even if you're big like a panda,it doesn't make you a mature person at all. I can't say more cause this person may end up knowing it. I just keep it on lock.

"Told you, you messin with a gangsta,boy,
You messin with some gangsta, boy
Don't do that,
You got guts,don't move that
These surroundings belong to me,homie
Remember I told you that,
I see you pumping, I'm steppin in my weapons and
I'm shootin off to the death of him
If he try to run shots ahead of him

He's already done,tell it to him

And I'm not gonna wanna talk to you dudes who move sloppy,

So move,watch me
Stand still don't move,watch me
I'm a show you how to do this

I don't care
I'll put flame in the fire
Christian, Athiest, Pray to Elijah
Don't play, okay, just pray I don't snipe ya
Cause with the SK,
Doggy,I'm OK
My AK was my AKA Before my ABC's and had me A' Ok.."

So stand your guard,homie.

2010-10-28T22:17:00.002+08:00

It's thursday.

As often,thursday is not a powerful day for me. It gives me a loss sense of direction. When i walk in the door i did not feel "electrifying" as i do,on other days. This is especially because...

I hate maths.

I hate formulae.

I hate everything about maths.

Well,the depth of maths,i meant. Simple calculations is a must in our daily life.

It's just that getting to the depth of it,is not my cup of tea.

I have found a good jazz singer by the name of Melody Gardot. Shout out to Yi Tong,my classmate,for introducing the musics by this singer.

Such soulful voice,and with this kind of relaxing music,i can finally have my mind at rest while listening to it.

Damn,i need that Green Tea Cream,now!

2010-10-26T21:02:00.002+08:00

I guess what my new media communication faci said is true. That it is easy to score A but hard to maintain in.

And i was slap with the truth afterall. I laid back and slacked abit for this weeks performances and for that i had 2 B's as a results.

I am disappointed with this week results. I realised how fast paced the class environment in RP is,the moment you slack,you'll go deep down the drain.

"I'm a monster, I'm a maven

I know this world is changin'
Never gave in, never gave up
I'm the only thing I'm afraid of

No matter what you'll never take that from me

My reign is as far as your eyes can see.."

2010-10-23T13:32:00.002+08:00

choppa-choppa city down.. down.. down..

I lay a nigga down.. down.. down..

What's good everybody? It's been so long since this blog is being updated.

I'm doing good and everything is looking tropical right now. But exceptionally i gotta deal with some financial issues,currently. haha. But what i like most now is that school has been wonderful for the past weeks. Good grades are flying in and i hope to keep that energy,throughout.

Words and comments from the facilitators has been encouraging and i hope i won't disappoint them with my performance in class,cause ya'll know that i do nothing but WIN!!

So,i guess till next time for more updates.

Enjoy your weekends,everyone!

2010-04-11T10:41:00.002+08:00

sup,everyone!
we back from camp cypher 2010!
it's a 3 days 2 nights event.

so i'm pretty much anxious and excited to meet my new future course mates. but thank god,everyone is friendly. we clique well right from our first hello. impressive start. well let's hope it will turn like this till we graduate.

camp was fun and at the same time tiring. nothing but games,games and more games. 1st day,we gotta go around the school to take part in 15 team event games. can you imagine that? running around trying to beat the clock,participate actively and after all that,followed by a loud ass cheer. man,that's madness. probably even more hardcore than national service. but i am truly impressed with my team members. everyone was co-operative and eager to participate all the activities. things went smoothly and along with the second day group performance,we won second prize overall. not a bad standing since we just knew each other for like barely a week. haha.

we head down to sentosa on the second day. long bus ride from RP. me and the rest be sleeping peacefully in the bus due to our uneasy sleep in the previous night. sentosa is one hot place to go,too. and i mean hot. hot ass heat like miami. they organized an amazing race event against all the other teams. complete games and challenges. but all that comes to a stop due to bad weather. see. eventually,the sun turn cold and out came the rain. it was a truly breezy environment. all that we needed after we stay a long time under the hot sun!

3rd day,i ain't gonna say much. just some water activities and prize presentations. so,i'm now looking forward for tomorrow. orientation day!

:)

2010-03-27T13:10:00.001+08:00

I said I'm young by the way,
The one by the way,
I ain't tripping,
I just do this shit for fun by the way,
The truth by the way,
The proof by the way,
Mr. front up on me,
Know I'm gonna shoot by the way,
I said it's on by the way,
I'm in the zone by the way,
You can call me,
Mr. get em gone by the way,
I did it by the way,
I was with it by the way,
I talk it like I did it,
Cause I lived it by the way.....

2010-03-22T21:29:00.002+08:00

loyalty,truth,respect.

I work hard to take care of every one of my friends,
Feel the love and appreciation from all of my friends,
When I think meditate and contemplate for my soul,
watch the truth manifest once the story unfold,
Disloyal motherfu**ers I'm a BANISH you all,
and celebrate all in your absence once I get rid of y'all,
Sometimes I can't describe the wicked shit I feel in my heart,
Break my silence and sporadically tear you apart,
Strike with a serious vengeance and before you die,
Put you through the worst and make you take a look in my eye!
So you could witness the extreme damage caused by betrayal,
Make you sorry for the fact that you attempted and failed!
Make you eternally suffer, when you was one of my friends,
Turn your back on me, and I'm a make sure you get it back times ten!
Stay TRUE -- now that's the one thing I religiously pledge,
If you ain't wit me I'm a throw you WAY over the edge!
THIS MEANS WAR!!

you're a imposter. life.you live yours. i live mine. disloyal people will always have a place in my body. my ASS that is. i see you when you see me. out.
:)

2010-03-17T20:36:00.000+08:00

I was born amongst poverty, I had no dough..
Motivated by a dream with some hustle and flow..
My paper was never long but my ambition was strong..
Following Gods path, I could never go wrong..
I took a road less traveled and I got a few scrapes..
But the journey was all worth it just to get that cake..
Mama told me I would make it, some fools just laughed..
But I remembered how they say "The first shall be last."..
I ignored all the haters and perfected my craft..
Times change, and nowadays to me it seem funny..
The same people hating, calling me up to borrow money..
But i hold no grudge, I just forgave and forgot..
I guess thats the reason I made it to the top..
Take a look at me now...

i'll burn your a$$ if you ever stab me in the back.
:)

2010-03-12T10:34:00.003+08:00

watch me do me,yeah!

Square 1!!!!

I'm a hit maker,
Not a comedian,
So why the f**k were these clowns,laughing at me?
When I seen they ass?
This shit would never work.
A one hit wonder bit**.
But all that shit that you doing now make me wonder this,
Now why it's cool for you,
But it's not for me?
And why he ain't hop on my song and make it hot for me?
But u don't give a f**k,
You just a car pool jacker
Now I'm a certified driver and i got my license.
Cause I'm trying to feed my hunger.
Y'all puss*es can die slowly,
Cause just to me
It sound like a bunch of karaoke.

Aye yo fuck the imposter!
F**k these karaoke clowns man!
Taufiq! they wanna live your life man!
These some bitch ass puss*es,man!
It's the t.a.u.f.i.q aka square 1,man!
I'm goin in
I'm goin in
But uh let me get em' again..

beware..

2010-03-11T21:39:00.002+08:00

they say,'money make the world go round..'

this i agree. and it's true,indeed.

just like Illuminati,it blinded us through.

friends become foes,where people have financial woes almost all the time.

money,money,money.

we work so hard,but yet we are paid very little.

a very debatable subject. but i won't go deeper than that. cause typing this out has caused a great headache already.

2010-03-10T12:26:00.002+08:00

we back,and hopefully i have the time to update this blog of mine.

let's see. school is starting soon. really soon.

12th april will be the orientation. it will be for 3 days. i'm happy i can wear berms to school,even if it's inside a business school. haha.

i've made some friends even before i enter school. friends from the same school and friends in the same course. thanks to facebook. it's kinda like a stepping stone to kick start some bonding before we start school.

so the only thing left,is to pay for the supplementary fees on friday.

i can't wait to start school!

and i miss mic studio.

14th march,anyone?

p/s: please feel my music. haha!

:)

2010-01-29T18:35:00.003+08:00

happy 2010,everyone!

my new year resolution is to do well in school,good health and give love to my loved ones.

i can't wait for school. it's been a long wait. along the way,people had been asking me whether i'm still able to cope with school.

although this question might be quite demoralizing,i still believe i can raise my head high. i trust and believe a 101% of mine. i believe i can do it. if people had succeed in my situation before,why can't i?

i think about my future with each passing day. seriously it's a demanding situation in singapore workforce manpower. and yes,education is the first thing your employer will look for before even considering you. if you want good money and good life,step up your education. i believe in hardwork. and if you're lazy and wants to be showered with money,go queue up and buy lucky tickets from your neighbourhood singapore pools outlet.

i love you,nurdiyanah.
:)

2009-11-28T01:24:00.002+08:00

i want to feel the ambiance of being in town at night.

it may sound bleak,but i never had the chance to enjoy myself in town area at night.
gone were the days of having curfew during secondary school time.

truth is i'm amused by the big city lights. people doing their daily shopping and some just chill around and have that sip of a cup of cofee.

i love to do that. but i just can't bring myself to do so. i always like being at home nowadays.

but then again,what's so bad about being at home,always?

firstly,you get the opportunity to save some cash and truly the quote,"nothing feels like home" is always true.

this is a very contradicting post from a very contradicting person like me.

2009-11-25T22:01:00.002+08:00

my appetite is increasing lately.
just 2 days ago,i ate 4 plates of rice,big portions of fish and chicken.

i love foood!

let's get bigger!

2009-11-22T16:53:00.002+08:00

what's up,everyone?

sorry for the M.I.A moment.

you know we gotta update somehow,yes?

first off all,i have transformed my room into a gym space. i workout everyday after work. we (my body and me) workout 6 days a week. it is tough doing it after work when you have totally been depleted. but things changed now and I've been getting more active than ever.

i got a habit of running into expensive hobby. now,let me tell you,bodybuilding is a VERY expensive sport/hobby. supplements,diets,exercise equipments they all require $.

supplements are not at all cheap. well,they do sell the cheap ones,but of course,the effect is not as good. and i spend quite a lot on this portion.

diet.well in order to excel in this sports of bodybuilding,a good diet is a must.i usually shop for protein-based groceries. oats,tuna,beef,chicken breast,peas,almond,salmon,eggs,milk are some of my staples.and i spend A LOT particularly on this portion.well based on my own believe,i think junk and processed food are far more cheaper than clean,natural food.

for people who are trying to lose weight,my suggestion is,get your mindset right first,before you actually start attempting.i'm not trying to be rude,but i just hate to see when one quit halfway.
some tips to lose body weight,fat loss.

-Drink at least a gallon (4 litres) of water everyday. this will decrease water retention in your body. detoxify your body,too.

-Increase protein-based food. well a lot of people have the wrong misconception of protein food. they thought that protein induce muscle growth and cause them to be big and muscular. i say,NO. simply because protein aids in fat loss too. because muscle burns fat. so since protein builds muscle and burns fat effectively,surely you want to increase your protein intake.

-Eat fatty fish such as cod,mackerel,tuna or salmon. they all contains omega 3 that also aids in fat loss.

-cut out on carbohydrates/starchy food such as rice/noodles. low carbs alternatives of these are brown rice and bee hoon.

-exercise contributes 20% to your fat loss mission. i recommend some strength training and cardio. you don't have to carry alot of weights. just 40 mins of light weights training will have you tone up. do schedule for each bodypart to be train,each day. the most effective exercise for fat loss is cardio. cardio can be done through swimming,fast walk,jogging,running,cycling. cardio is also good for your heart. as it makes them stronger and prevent you from getting heart attack in the future.

so with all being said,i hope you have the motivation to start your goals,soon.

as for me,it's bulking time till december. and i will have my cutting period after that.
i can't wait to start my first cutting session.

-train hard.

Taufiq

2009-08-25T09:59:00.003+08:00

I didn't report for work today because i'm...............
Stress.
:)

I've uploaded the pictures and i am all set to post it up here.

19th august,we both took our time off from work to spend a day together on my special day.

we met on my void deck and baby surprise me with my birthday cake,which is of course,baked by her. it's the second time that baby had gave me a birthday cake. and it also marks the day,we first met each other. yup,it's on my birthday. and i'm glad that all the special day came on a special date. :)

we drove down to yishun to buy us some snacks,drinks and food.
i was surprised by how much this small little neighbourhood changed from the day i left it. i grew up on this little neighbourhood since i was a baby. but one thing didn't changed. and it is the market. same exact image,i portrayed,decades ago.

we packed our nasi lemak and head down to pasir ris park.

we set up the tent,instantly.
we talk,
we joked,
we laugh,
and we simply enjoyed the sight.

we toast our sparkling juice and proceed for our late breakfast.

it rains at a point of time but thank god,it wasn't a heavy one.

went over to kranji park,next.

we flew the kite,and it was the first time baby did that.

and we gonna go for a kite flying outing,again!

the pictures!

My Birthday Cak3!

Our instant tent!

Happy 22nd,Taufiq!

Me Favourite candy!

Gift #1,baby in white ribbon!

Gift #2,baby in black ribbon!

Gift #3,baby in green ribbon! waaaaaa!

My First attempt to fly kite at pasir ris beach!

and it wasn't high enough! let's go to kranji park,shall we?
where the wind is stronger and baby flew her first kite!

Look at baby go!

and our kite got stucked in the tree. :(

That's all folks! see you,next time!

:)

2009-08-20T21:30:00.002+08:00

And i want to save this space to wish myself a happy 22nd birthday!

it's been a great year..

it's been a wonderful journey through out..

it's been a green and colourful day..

it's been lovely..

it's been good..

VERY good!

and i wanna thank god for sending me a blissful companion by the name of Nurdiyanah Binte Kamis.

my world is filled with singing birds and wonderful rainbow all around.

i love you,anah!

22 years old.

let's put all of this past into a phrase.

"May the angels walk with me,
Big things,big rims,
All them big stars and big cars,
I can say,i've seen it all and done it all (more or less)"

I'm rolling with the wind now.

Part 2 updates coming,soon.

:)

2009-08-17T19:20:00.002+08:00

so me and baby wrapped up our weekends watching,'The Proposal'.

a love comedy that is fun to watch and worth the movie tickets.

so,i recommend you guys to watch it,yes?

A good romantic comedy only has to tick two boxes: depict two people falling in love and be funny about it. Simple as that. Yet the pen hovers past the first box in The Proposal, the latest offering from 27 Dresses director Anne Fletcher. It’s certainly funny despite being the very definition of conventional, but either I missed the part when Ryan Reynolds and Sandra Bullock fell in love or it simply didn’t happen. Their comedic chemistry is abundant in spades, but never does their sham wedding amount to anything more than, well, a sham wedding. For a rom-com, this presents a problem. Or at least half of one.

Bullock should know better than anyway how to pull it off. After all, this is an actress who has twice managed to evoke some chemistry from the emotional black hole known as Keanu Reeves (Speed, The Lake House). That’s no mean feat. To be fair, she does have her work cut out for her as workaholic devil-boss Margaret Tate, the chief editor for a New York publisher, whose only moments of intimacy come from the pages of a manuscript. When it’s questionable whether her blood would bleed green, it’s hard to imagine that this is a character about to fall in love. Unless it’s with Ryan Reynolds, who slaves away as Margaret’s tormented assistant Andrew. Even I’ll admit the guy’s the epitome of hunk; I think every woman in the audience developed a more heartfelt relationship with Reynolds long before Bullock forced it out.

Mind you, the lack of spark in their relationship is essentially the premise of the film. When faced with being deported back to Canada for not having a working visa, quick thinking Margaret announces that she’s engaged to Andrew, whom is left little choice but to awkwardly smile and nod. Her egotistical immigration officer (Denis O’Hare) doesn’t believe a word of it of course, expecting them both to fail the upcoming ‘how well do you know your partner’ test. Since Andrew already knows Margaret like the back of his eyelids, she reluctantly agrees to spend the weekend with his parents in Alaska so she can get to know him better. Realising that he finally has some leverage, Andrew only agrees to the proposal if Margaret appoints him as editor once they return. Turns out that even if you’re Sandra Bullock it takes blackmail to get Hollywood toy boy Ryan Reynolds to spend a night with you.

Upon arriving in Alaska, the film leaves behind the amusing The Devil Wears Prada set-up and turns into something resembling Meet the Parents. The two must keep up the lie in front of Andrew’s loving family, who at Margaret’s surprise, are local tycoons. It turns out Alaska is abundant with fun caricatures; Andrew’s delightfully over-the-top 90 year old grandma Annie (TV Queen Betty White) is insistent the two get married whilst she’s still alive. It’s cause for concern, not only because the sham is getting out of hand, but also because the village minister Ramone (Oscar Nuñez) works by night as a male stripper. As he thrusts to the sounds of ‘Relax’ by Frankie goes to Hollywood, it’s here where choreographer-turn-director Anne Fletcher is clearly having her fun.

It might be contrived and conventional, but Pete Chiarelli screenplay does provide some solid laughs. Most of the humour derives from the bitter wordplay between Reynolds and Bullock, who bounce off each other splendidly. Although, the comedy-baited awkward scenarios miss their mark more often than not, such as one tacky scene where Margaret improvises an Indian tribal dance to the crude hip-hop song ‘Get Low’. Then there’s also the attempt at a dial-up internet joke (already?). If you’ve seen the trailer, you’d already know that the funniest of these scenarios sees a very naked Margaret and very naked Andrew awkwardly fall over each other. It’s ironic since the two never convincingly fall for each other. Bullock and Reynolds aren’t to blame; the problem is that the slapstick comedy is so methodically segregated from the gushy ‘I’m starting to fall for you’ moments, it never gets a chance to be genuine. As a result, The Proposal only ever amounts to a mildly enjoyed engagement that simply wasn’t meant to last.

2009-08-15T09:28:00.002+08:00

it's saturday morning!

everyone have their chance to spend time with their family and loved ones,today.

but i got my chance earlier,which is yesterday. i did not report to work as i had sore eyes.

i met baby at 4pm and we planned to watch the movie,'Orphan'.

it was a good movie,really.

everything was in the package.

storyline was good.

all the characters played well in their roles.

and my kudos to Isabelle Fuhrman

In Orphan, the little girl (Esther) is so bad. 'Naughty' doesn't even able to describe how bad she really is. She's a devil: a type of child that you, as a mother, want to crush immediately into pieces. Isabelle Fuhrman does excellent job as a devil-possessed like girl with extremely worrying mental problem that begins to kill everyone one by one.

baby was horrified throughout the show. i think this show is not suitable for a "PG" label. but to be change to "R21" instead,hehe.

She loooooks real cute in this movie! Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! :)

2009-08-06T16:46:00.000+08:00

2009-08-02T10:59:00.004+08:00

it's saturday and every saturday is the day i meet up with my baby,nurdiyanah!

we met up at 12pm,woodlands interchange..

took bus 161,double decker all the way till hougang..

and i guided baby through the surroundings of hougang mall,hub and also my work place..

after all that we took bus 51 to hort park.. it was a really long bus ride,but i like it..

and we challenged each other to a game of crazy taxi,in our psp..

baby said she got a headache after playing it..

why eh? because you lost! lalalalala! hehehe..

so after about 40 mins of the journey,we arrived at hort park! the ambiance is peaceful.. the air is fresh.. the view right from the bridge is stunning.. and you see all the fast cars pass by.. at night,the bridge is light up by the led lighting.. i wanna drive pass through that bridge someday.. and see it glow by the night..

we had fun together at the park! it was a breezeful day and we rest our worked up eyes looking at the beautiful,greeny plants..

we took alot of pics yesterday.. baby told me we took around 112 pictures in total! hehe!

okay now,this shall be a half post,half picture blog..

and i'm gonna load the pictures we took,yesterday..

photos are in no random order..

:)

( 1 of our favourite picture.. hee!)

( Relishing childhood memories! weee!)

(baby,look like she's posing for a shoot,right after she slide down..)

(i think it's gonna bloom soon!)

(quiet moment!)

(our wonderful getaway moment!)

(cuteness!)

(she's mine.. period.)

(Help! sadoko is pulling me to her well!)

(the old man be like,"how i wish i could take a shot like this couple,here!" haha!)

(baby is so prettttttty!)

(magazine cover??)

(hahahaha! baby's bad hair moment..)

(3rd month,soon!)

(we the best!)

(our image through the glimpse of a fish tank)

(we fly high!)

(baby,as hitler!)

(album cover.. nurdiyanah the greatest hits,dijual di pasaraya seluruh malaysia!)

(Favourite shot!)

(my baby is crying for help! someone is disturbing her! i'm coming,baby! charrrgeee!)

(you're safe in my arms,again!)

(miss fitness!)

(nostalgia!)

(abandoned by baby at the stairs! hahaha!)

(this is how she looks when i pinched her.. haha!)

(my pacifier,is my baby's finger!)

(awwwww!)

(Me)

(You)

and that is all,folks!

more pictures during our outing on the next time around,okay!

take care everyone!

i love you nurdiyanah binte kamis!

:)

2009-08-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

2009-07-12T12:06:00.009+08:00

Urmmmm.

Hello world!

haha.. my new playlist.. tell me that i'm the flyest and the most freshest individual on earth! okay,shh!

and alot of wonderful scenarios happened this week.

hmmm,i can say that it's all a good one.

okie dokiez!

first up.

my rim is now the changed to avanti's 17" rims purple rims with gold coloured lips! and the best thing is,it's limited edition! and the 2nd best thing is,i'm the 2nd owner out of the 4 set of those rims that is sold here. i think i need to re-phrase that. there's only 4 sets that is sold here in singapore! and i'm the second person to own it! and i love colours combination! though it's a mixture of light and dark colours,it look sooooooooo fresh! just love the purple! remind me of grape soda! the tyres? haha. i got them yokohama tyres that just arrived last saturday. and they assembled all that yesterday. way to fresh,man. and i'm so loving it. so. i wanna brag about it. just this time. it's something like this." no one in the corner have swagga like ME!" haha. okay,don't show off now. i can't wait to drive this baby,with another baby by my side. and. but of course,my friends. we'll go for a ride soon,okay?

I call this,The Chop Shop.

Fresh Off The Chop Shop. Looking Majesctic. haha!

Closer Look at the new 17". Suave. Period.

work has been good. kinda hectic. but i guess i'm slowly blending in. though i'll be working there on a temporary basis,i guess i've gained alot of valuable experience up to this point. i just came to know that the post i'm covering,is for someone who is away on a maternity leave. so,no wonder i got my own office/room. i just love the office ambiance.

yesterday was a green day for nurdiyanahandtaufiq! we both wore green for our outing. and yesterday location was in bugis where we had our movie session. we watched the haunting in Connecticut. hmmm,i shall say that this movie has a very bad start. kinda dry. the suspence was not that great. and it has a lot of twist to it. so,you gotta really focus watching it. to gain a better understanding. heard alot of movie watchers asking question to their friends,the moment the movie ended. hmmm. i am a little skeptical about this history of this story. so i'll google for the history of this house during my free time. and we had our makan session after that. and ayam penyet was in the menu. and after 77 years of waiting,i finally had a good gulp of soda gembira! hahaha! that drink is so evil! it got me hooked! but the sugar is wayyyyyy to much. so,be cautious! in another word,if you get diabetes,soda gembira is not gembira to you. (",)

taufiq and diyanah has celebrated their 2 months of togetherness recently. and nurdiyanah has been very sweet. she sent me a big envelope!

that contains......

This is the envelope..

Symbols Of Love!

The Letter from the GF,which only I can read! hahahah!

This card is unique! a size of a credit card,and you gotta scratch the metal sticker,to read the hidden message!

i
love
you
nurdiyanah binte kamis!

happy 2 monthsary to you and me.
M.U.A.C.K.S!

2009-06-29T23:38:00.003+08:00

and the good news is.......

i've got the job from HDB for the post i've mentioned in one of my entries a few week back..

and i want to thank everyone who made it possible for this opportunity..

truly a stepping stone for me and i'm gonna work hard to attain a few more goals..

my first day at work will be on this thursday,at toa payoh HDB hub..

and i'm truly astonished to be working at the 30th level! weeee!

i wanna look at the other skycrapers around singapore!

i love my baby so much laaaaaaaaaa!

and she has been supportive to me from the past till the present..

baby,you're part of my pillar of strength.. you're one of the bones in my backbone.. the biggest of all bones!

haha.. okay.. i think i'm going nuts.. just like my baby! she said she's a macadamia nut! well baby.. i'm the pistachios,then..

baby3.. i love you so much!

muaccccccccks!

and presenting to you all our first neoprint together!

so what do you think,people? from the way i see it,i look so compatible with her! and look at my smile! it's one of the proof to say that i'm happy being around her.. (",)

and a beam with my foot on the gasoline,tell me i ain't the flyest guy you've seen
and it's all smooth sailin'!

2009-06-27T10:59:00.002+08:00

i didn't managed to get myself employed for the last 2 weeks since i ORD.

i'm starting to feel useless about myself as negativity thoughts starts kicking in.

i'm not desperate to get my self employed,but staying at home with nothing to do really freak me out.

apart from that i still have some personal problems to deal with.

problems that i wanna deal with it,alone.

and i really mean that.

please don't ask me what that problem is.

and3 meeting with baby has been great lately!

i took my very 1st neoprint with her.

and i think i need to be more photogenic.

(",)

2009-06-19T17:14:00.002+08:00

19th June 2009

today was the first time i went for a job interview. and i mean first,ever. formal interview,that is. whereby a panel of board members are waiting to shoot off their questions to you.

so,i reported at HDB hub @ toa payoh. the interview was scheduled at 10.00am. but i followed the interview etiquette and arrived exactly at 9.45am.

knocked on the door of queenstown room and i was greeted happily by their secretary. i gave her the photocopies for my resume and documents. after settling it,i asked her how many people will be interviewing the candidates.

she replied,8. i was tongue tied and from that moment,my heart just keep pounding fast. but i told myself,to be confident and show them what you are capable of.

and that keeps me going till my name is called out to proceed to the interview room. and i counted a total of 9 people in that room. including myself. and i saw their individual name plate right in their front. i can see the position of CEO,Asst Manager,Admin exec,and all the various department heads.

i ponder to myself. am i going for an interview for the post of executive? and when i hear one of the board members telling me that i'm applying the position of admin executive assistant,i was shocked. i thought it was only admin assistant. which is of course,of a lower level.

i settle myself quick after i sat down. and they told me to explain briefly about myself. which i think i did,good. and questions by questions was targeted to me. and i think i answered them very well. not to brag,but,i really think before i shoot my answers. haha.

and after half an hour or so,the questions finally came to an end. and they told me that i have a possitive attitude and that i stand a high chance for the eployment.

the minus point is,they will place me at the hougang branch. which is so far away from my house. they asked me if i'm willing to work there. and i said,yes. irregardless of how far it is,i am more willing to travel and gain that much needed experience to work.

hmmm,i think i've motivate myself to go on and look for jobs and gain some experience and knowledge before my school term starts.

2009-06-14T10:58:00.001+08:00

and i met my baby last week.. after nearly 3 months of not meeting her,i finally got the opportunity to give her a shock once again.. and i did it perfectly.. hahaha! baby3.. next time,don't just walk straight.. look around you once in awhile.. (",)

so we head down to sembawang shopping centre to buy us a jar.. oh,we are making a wishing jar for ourselves! i guess,i won't need to elaborate more of it.. cause i think you guys know what it is..

head down sunplaza next to print out our photos for our own photo album.. that album is gonna filled with much of our memories during our different outings.. (",)

we head down to the study corner and settle down.. we then started to paste the pictures into the album.. and while cutting the double sided-tape,i ACCIDENTALLY cut through my pants.. hehe.. and baby saw the hole on my pants.. she took a piece of that cut cloth and paste it on the book!! and and and.. she said it's for memories!! gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! JAHAT! :'(

but3 she's still the sweetest.. look at what she got me from houston!

look at this.. A giant bottle of Jelly Beans! it's 1.8KG and has 41 different flavours in it.. and i personally like the watermelon flavour,best! (",)

And she drew our name on the pebbles.. and these pebbles were picked up by her from concan.. that's where she went for her camping trip! (",)

different views of the pebbles..

last but not least...........

(",)

2009-06-13T11:49:00.002+08:00

2 years have past,and i'm back to civilian life..

got my Pink I/C back yesterday during de-kitting..

it's been a long journey.. but a smooth and breeze one..

i'm leaving with pride on my shoulders..

and definitely left with a good name upon myself..

thank you to all,who have been backing me since day one,we help each other along the way,so they can have a smooth journey during NS,too..

Goodbye,Lima-Charlie..

2009-06-01T23:38:00.002+08:00

2 days from now and after 30 years of waiting,my *thatonethatone* aka nurdiyanah binte kamis will be returning here to singapore!

but..

but..

but..

after her arrival here,she can't meet me yet,she gotta go for a quarantine period at aloha loyan for a grace period of 7 days!

and baby,please don't think it's bad.. free food,free lodging,free services.. how's that? ahaha!

and..

and..

and..

she drew this for me.. which is now,my personal msn background skin!

thank you so much,gf! you're the perfect gift on god's green earth!

(",)

2009-05-29T19:44:00.000+08:00

Loves to joke
Attractive
Suave and caring
Brave and fearless
Firm and has leadership qualities
Knows how to console others
Too generous and egoistic
Takes high pride of oneself
Thirsty for praises
Extraordinary spirit
Easily angered
Angry when provoked
Easily jealous
Observant
Careful and cautious
Thinks quickly
Independent thoughts
Loves to lead and to be led
Loves to dream
Talented in the arts, music and defense
Sensitive but not petty
Poor resistance against illnesses ( NO,NOT TRUE!)
Loving and caring
Loves to make friends

2009-05-26T22:21:00.003+08:00

i wanna blog something that i've never blogged about before.. and the title goes a little something like this..

ranting from the boyfriend

it's been 6 days since gf left for her camping trip.. and only god knows how much i'm missing her right now.. it's truly a challenge to me.. mind ogling and all.. and i hope my ex-gf's won't mind reading this,but,i miss her like way more than i used to miss a special someone.. she's so extraordinary.. there's a different in this.. but i.. i need her and i want her..

babyyyyyyyyyyyy! can you hear me shouting for you? no? but of course,you're at the other side of the planet.. i'm shouting for you,heart to heart.. can you hear me,baby? time flies by slowly when you're not around.. and.. i miss you more and more each day.. i messaged you on your cell phone.. but i got nothing in return.. i feel so lonely,right now.. i've done everything that i could to occupy those free time.. but,somehow,there's a time frame when it's all about you.. like now.. i keep reading your blog again and again.. i read our journal entry,i look up to our photos and the picture drawn by you.. your shirt is beside me.. and your cup is filled with ice and blueberry fizz drink..

can you come back soon?

don't leave me for too long,please..

i miss you..

i keep listening to this song by trademark.. the title of this song is,"i'll be the one" and here is my favourite part of the lyrics..

"Maybe I'll be the one
if you want me here to stay
Maybe I'll be the one
to guide you all the way
No I'm never gonna hurt you
you're always on my mind
and I'll be the one untill the end of time"

i love you,anah!

Yes,I know you miss your long hair.. =)

2009-05-26T19:11:00.001+08:00

At GNC today, one of the employees told me he was trying to make ice cream out of protein. I obviously got hooked on the idea, and went home and played around. Found out that the European style ice cream uses eggs. The result was amazing, and is high protein/fat free/ low carb..

Ingredients
.9 cups of evaporated/condensed skim milk (It's liquid and comes in a can)
1-2 scoops of whey protein, you choose the flavor
2 tsp vanilla extract
1/8 tsp salt
3/4 cups of PASTEURIZED (in order of fat content and rich texture) egg whites/egg product/ egg product with yolk or 3 pasteurized eggs (We don't want salmonella now do we?)
1 Tbsp instant sugar/fat free pudding with a flavor that will match the whey (banana whey plus chocolate pudding is delicious)
Ice to prefered consistency if you dislike a rich taste

You can play around with the recipe if you want like adding oatmeal, peanut butter, splenda, etc.

Mix all ingredients in blender for about 3 minutes. Taste and add extra of different ingredients according to your tastes. Toss in freezer in closed container, open back up and stir occasionally in case any contents settle to the bottom. Freeze as long as you have the paitence to wait..

the results...

pure goodness!

Okay the whole thing...

32g carbs (sadly 23g sugar from the milk)
86g protein
4.5g fat

2009-05-26T13:35:00.002+08:00

yo people!

the sentosa/underwater world pics is uploaded! but....

it's on my facebook account.. and there's alot of pics to be inserted here..

so,i would appreciate it if you guys can visit me on facebook and take a look at the pictures there..

album titled,"Fun In The Sun"..

(",)

2009-05-25T23:17:00.003+08:00

After days of blog skins searching,i've finally found something that suits my choice..
i like my post section to be big.. so,this skin has that space.. okay,done!

Had the team's lunch function at sakura just now.. the restaurant is located right behind the singapore japanese school.. very linked.. japanese school and japanese restaurant,right behind.. very well planned.. well it was huge.. and there's 2 storey for food.. all the way down,is the western,dim sums,beverages,real food section.. 2nd storey,is more to japanese food.. and the desserts section..

Went to westcoast entertaintment to have some pool session with the dudes.. 3 tables for us.. and we were very rowdy amongst everyone there.. haha.. typical us.. so head home at around 4pm.. and reached at 5.30pm.. i had a ride in fattah's car.. a damn big car..

Opened the door and i saw a box,that wrote bodybuilding.com on it.. placed at the top of the dining table.. wooooo! i was delighted that the package is finally here.. look:

just some multi-vits,joint support,amino acids,some drink samples,a water bottle shaker and a t-shirt..

went to sentosa last sunday with my aunt and her 2 sons.. my dad didn't follow.. so there was me,mum and my 2 sisters..

the last time we went there was like 2 decades ago! that was donkey years ago.. but i'm glad that we went there again.. this time,with me driving.. hehehe..

underwater world is huge! and i saw some species of fishes which is really weird.. truly there's something to learnt at the end of the tour..

and i finally get the chance to see a pink dolphin live.. the show truly proved to me that dolphins,are indeed a trainable and very intelligent creatures..

and the girls at palawan beach looking real hot as the sun.. WOW!

pictures will be up,soon..

this song really suits my personality!

(",)

2009-05-21T20:47:00.002+08:00

Baby drew a pic of us while she was bored and alone at home.. kesian dia.. but nevertheless,this is a good drawing.. i won't expect much.. but i appreciate your thoughts.. means.. i'm on your mind 24/7.. weeeeee! (",)

she'll be away for a camping trip for 2 weeks.. in the woods.. gonna miss her very much.. must learn how to set a campfire,okay?

i captured a screenshot while she was sleeping.. and i'm gonna post it up here.. she's so adorable while she's sleeping.. like penguin! haha! omg.. she is so gonna kill me when she reads this.. *praying*

2009-05-17T22:59:00.002+08:00

the fun fair at millennia institute was fun!

good food,good ambience,good times!

i noticed that all jc students are loud.. those quiet ones are rarely seen..

waaa.. i miss the fun of participating in a fun-fair event!

maybe in RP?

(",)

2009-05-14T23:25:00.001+08:00

it was a bad day,today.

2009-05-11T11:41:00.001+08:00

What is your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.

You are warm and open. Even when life gets you down, you're unafraid of the world and its challenges.
You are comfortable with who you are. And you accept your weaknesses - as well as the weaknesses of others.

While you are quite stable, you don't respond perfectly to every bad situation that comes up.
But you have enough emotional intelligence to know when you need a course correction.

2009-05-10T01:14:00.000+08:00

Happy Mother's day,Mum!

2009-05-08T17:43:00.002+08:00

~My Own Custom Cartoon Drawing~

Which was drawn by my lovely gf,nurdiyanah! haha.. she has never failed me with her suprises.. such as her drawing above.. it makes me feel sooooooooooooooooooo loved! haha.. baby.. baby.. baby.. how sweet can you be?
(",)

2009-05-07T14:50:00.002+08:00

i'm keeping you forever and for always.

i love you.

xoxo

Of the million of moments in life,
I choose to remember a selected few,
Most recently are about you.
I choose to remember our first meeting,
Nothing extraordinary but a friendly chat,
I choose to remember the look on your face,
I choose to remember the smile on your face,
I cherish every moment spent with you,
Whether it's serious talks or just joking around,
I can’t think of a better person to share my
Secret thoughts with,that is why I choose you,
Love is build upon faith and trust,
Don’t ever stop being who you are,
Because that’s why I feel so close to you,
You’re close to my heart and I know we are
Going to be together for a long time,
I choose you because you're someone
I enjoy being around with,
I choose you because you are a special person...
I.Love.YOU!
(",)

2009-05-03T01:44:00.007+08:00

today marks the beginning of may..

bulking is over now.. time for cutting..

current stats:74.5 kg..

still abit light.. i was aiming for 80 kg.. but i think it's gonna be just fine..

i've bought some supplements to help me with the cutting phase..

MUSCLE JUICE 2544..
A Great Tasting Proven Advanced Muscle Mass Formula!
bought the banana flavoured powder.. it taste like banana milk shake.. (",)

Well it's a solid-looking gray can..
my 5th bottle of animal's nitro.. the pump is so good,sometimes,i'd rather stay in the gym all day.. (",)

and i bought some shirt as well!

-IT'S NOT POLITE TO STARE (BUT I UNDERSTAND)

-"Team Bodybuilding.com".

love the font colours on this one.. (",)

"This is my life,
Its not what it was before,
All these feelings I've shared,
And these are my dreams,
That I'd never lived before,
Somebody shake me,
Cause I, I must be sleeping..."

2009-04-30T12:37:00.000+08:00

i really hope a miracle will happen..

believe it or not..

i'm afraid.. really afraid..

:'(

2009-04-23T12:23:00.004+08:00

We used to talk on a chirp now we talking through a glass,
Just like the glass I know he sees right through me,
Transparent,I can't hide my window pain..
I'm thinkin' what to say to make him have a better day
I'm walkin' down this hallway like what the fu*k I'm gonna say
As I'm walkin' down the halls I feel the stress in the walls
I need to lighten up,man this sh*t is too tense!
Feels like I need to calm myself,my heart aches so bad,
But,When he sees my face,he's gonna be so glad
Then I look into his eyes swear to god I seen his soul!
Tell me what can make a hot boy stare so cold??
As I looked a lil deeper,I saw a lil hope,then he cracked a smile
He still got his pride..
We Talked about the past.. and..
He said,
"No matter what you do don't let your parents down,man"

Never,man.. i will never let my parents down with my own actions.. i'm a grown ass man.. and i think before i make a decision.. everyone makes a mistakes.. i hope time will help you to do some soul searching within yourself..

Time is short and flyes fast,
makes me never forget what happened in the past,
But ten years in a blast,
i guess that's why some of my memories are vast..

I've set a new goal for myself.. to become a councilor in polytechnic.. chances had came by a lot of times.. but i've always missed it.. tight timing and other commitments..

Mohammad Taufiq wrote in his notebook,

"and when i got my shot i never missed,
cause i never aimed high when i was a little kid,
time flies but i never forget the things i did,
and the people that i used to hang with,
remember the trains that we used to bomb emmet,
remember the days outside seven eleven?
something,somewhere time was faint,
but today i think i spend time efficient,
worse then peace cats,i wish somethings were different
dude,remember we marked cards and played blackjack (even though i've still no idea how to play it till today!)
so if we lost our Money we would that cash back?
flashbacks from the good times of 04'
no cameras on the station and no guards along the line
whenever fine,time is short and flies fast
makes me never forgets what happened in the past...
parts and slices of a life that were nice,
were blowing dust of the ancient mights,
mad memories shaped like blades and sharp knifes
you stabbed me in the heart in the great shapes of night,
tights the way we used to stick together in my click,
we'd be hooking up with the atomic,
free bandits the time caught up with,
i panicked,what i saw i was a grown up kid,
enough said,i never forget how we did
i let the past be the past and look ahead....."

morning shift,tomorrow... draggggggg..... but.. ord-ing soon,hee! (",)

2009-04-22T19:08:00.000+08:00

back.

and i feel so fresh and rejuvenated.

(",)

2009-04-16T23:33:00.002+08:00

Dearest Nurdiyanah,

I know sometimes we fuss and fight, I know sometimes things don't go right, I know sometimes I can frustrate you, and I know sometimes you get me mad.. I know that you're my better half, I know without you I'm incomplete, and I know that tomorrow you won't be here with me, but Baby, you know that no matter what, you will always have a key to my heart..

We might be miles away for a while, I might not get to see you smile or hear you laugh or even watch you sleep, but baby, you know that the true test of love is distance, for it's said that distance brings people closer together..

I know that even if I have to shed a tear every day until you come back; I will.. If I have to hide myself from the world; I will.. I will do anything I can just to make sure that when you come back to me you know my love is pure and true..

Love always,

Mohammmad Taufiq

baby,please take good care of yourself.. i've read the message from hawa (thanks,hawa!).. and i understand everthing that's going on.. i miss you and i loveeeeeeeeeeeeee you more! (",)

*CUTEEEEEEE LAAAAA BUDAK KECIK NIIIIIII! HAHAHAHA!*

2009-04-14T16:04:00.002+08:00

Photo-Post..

L.o.a.d.i.n.g...

"does anyone knows,why i had this swing placed in the car?"

"hustler doing his thang.. haha!!"

"we built this city of lights!"

"i love grappling!"

"formal wear vs street religion"

"happy as always,10 years of friendship and still counting.. but,pardon my sis at the back.. haha!"

2009-04-02T12:14:00.002+08:00

I wanted you to know
I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph;
I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Because I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away
You don't feel me here, anymore

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn,
and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

‘Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

‘Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away
You don't feel me here, anymore

a good song and lyrical material from seether ft evanesence..

anyways,gonna have my run @ sembawang park with fadzly,tonight.. the distance will be from my house till sembawang park and from sembawang park back to my house.. total distance will be around 20KM.. gonna have more of this long and endurance run to prepare myself for my very first race.. a 10km run at sentosa..

2009-03-31T21:31:00.002+08:00

Called to the Captain,
To put me ashore,
For it looked like no man's land,
Is this the way to follow?
I cried as I shook his hand,
He told me had no answer,
He didn't really hold the key,
I am a simple man,
Was all he said to me...

i think i'm feeling paranoid.. i hope the trip to bali and bintan calms me down.. i wanna sit down and enjoy the scenery of the blue ocean,birds chirping and the beautiful sun.. while doing my life reflection.. i want to be back as a calmer man.. who don't feel paranoid knowing that his love is not around..

p/s.. i'm sorry.. if only my name is daniel,you would be the happiest girl on earth..

2009-03-29T18:19:00.002+08:00

I just hope i could wear something like this on the first day of school.. it's not bragging and boasting.. it's all mental.. you gotta have the right mental right from the first day.. so,being away from school for awhile now,i think you gotta have some fun from the first week.. get used to the floor plan.. get used to the surroundings.. get used to the people.. and i wanna made myself known,right from the first day.. like how i used to do it when i first entered I.T.E..

i wanna wear a bermuda instead.. my shoes,gonna be gucci white.. gucci scarf,gucci colourway belt,gucci backpack.. the gucci jacket looks damn good right there..

but you know what? it was all a dream.. haha.. (",)

2009-03-28T01:42:00.003+08:00

To:Nurdiyanah Binte Kamis,

Hey Beautiful, I just wanted to do something simple to say I love you and to put that smile I love so much back on your face.. I want everyone to know how much you mean to me... Ever since you have entered my life, I've been flying on Cloud 9 and I have not come down yet..

I tell you this everyday, but you are the most beautiful person I know, inside and out and I see that more clearly with each passing day.. I love everything about you, about us.. You do something to me that no other has, you have made me so happy, the happiest I've ever been.. You give me the most amazing feelings inside, the feeling of being in love with you..

I still don't know what I did to be so lucky to have you in my life, my dream come true... I am so thankful though.. In this short time that we've been together, we have grown so much and I can't wait to see what the future holds for us. I love you, Diyanah, with all my heart and soul, always and forever!

Love Always,
Mohammad Taufiq

I'm sorry for the fact that we didnt't get to webcam for long,tonight.. you know how badly i misses you.. i yearn for you each day and i feel awkward if i didn't get to see you for the day.. i love you so much,baby! i miss you! my arms are waiting for you.. it wanna hold you tight.. and my heart wants you to listen to it's beat.. telling you how much it loves you!

a 1 minute rhymes and reasons for you to read.. a lil poem,which i hope you like it.. and you know what? it's loving-loving mode,now!

"When fate first drew us close together
I knew we would be one
And now your in my heart forever
It feels like heavens come

I love the way you love me
The way I love you too
But most of all I love you
Because our love is true

Sometimes I don’t like life
Sometimes I feel let down
But you’re my guiding light
To the better world around

So as I write this poem
My life feels so complete
I know just where we’re going
Us two cannot be beat

Now we have connected
We know where we both lie
In each other’s hearts we’ll stay
For all time and eternity...."

as mentioned above,this poem,i created using the proper words in which all of the meanings have had happened in our lives.. true story.. :)

2009-03-26T17:18:00.002+08:00

i miss my future gf so much!

hmmmm.. i wanna go fishing! i wanna rekindle the interest back,again.. i think all my rods have collected enough dusts... haha.. baby,we'll go fishing when you return,okay? let's make a deal.. if one of us didn't catch any fish on that day,then either me or you will buy dinner! if we both caught a fish,you'll buy me my fav ice cream and i'll do the same to you.. (",)

hmmmm.. april is coming soon.. 5 days more,to be exact.. gonna be abit busy and also a fun april.. here's the highlights:

-Batam for go-kart
-Bintan for diving
-Rhymes and reasons @ the concourse
-Grease-cycle course

and just maybe i might go for that steersman course.. but i think i'm gonna decline it..

baby,baby,baby! come back soon.. imysm,it hurts..

2009-03-24T16:01:00.002+08:00

Sagittarius and Leo

When Leo and Sagittarius join together in a love match, the result is often fireworks! Both Signs are extremely dynamic and enjoy life to the fullest. This couple is full of life and fun to be around, with each person encouraging the other to aim high! Sagittarius's philosophical tendency warrants a distraction to Leo's obsession with the larger-than-life. The two will have genuine admiration and respect for one another. Both are warm, charismatic and charming; people enjoy being in the energy this couple radiates.

Both Signs can be impatient but endearing, and Leo may be annoyed by Sagittarius's flirting, but there's never a dull moment in their relationship. Sagittarius sees the world as a textbook they must study from, while Leo acts as the gracious host. Both are extremely social, but it is vitally important to Leo that they feel that they are in control of the conversation. Leo is the Lion, the leader, while Sagittarius is the Archer, slowly taking the time to survey their target and feel the nuances of difference in their approach. Both Signs are usually respected by others, and it's important that each remembers to treat the other with the utmost respect as well.

Leo is ruled by the Sun and Sagittarius is ruled by the Planet Jupiter. Both are masculine energy archetypes, and together they make a good combination -- they understand one another because they are so similar. The Sun is about Self and Jupiter is about expansion and excess, together providing a personal and outward focus on themselves and the world, although sometimes they can overexert themselves. They're highly compatible with lots of energy, and can be a wonderful couple in any setting or situation.

Both Leo and Sagittarius are Fire Signs. This tends to be a very heated and passionate relationship. They both have boundless energy, and can seem the only ones able to keep up with one another's intensity. Although Sagittarius may become exhausted by Leo's expansive ego, their differences of opinion won't last long -- Sagittarius has moved on to the next project and Leo's optimism and need for a fan club overcome a petty argument.

Leo is a Fixed Sign and Sagittarius is a Mutable Sign. Sagittarius provides Leo with the deeper understanding they may be lacking, while Leo can fine-tune Sagittarius's charm and social graces. Sagittarius may be irritated by Leo's bossiness, shallow vanity and tendency to sulk. However, they are both loyal and devoted to one another, and the rewards of their union outweigh the minor setbacks.

What's the best aspect of the Leo-Sagittarius relationship? It's the willingness to work as a team and the mutual admiration they exhibit when dedicated to seeing things through. This duo complements one another with a combined attention to personal and world affairs. They both know their place in the relationship. Their comparable high energy and fiery passion makes them a versatile love match.

-i just love all the points above.. sounds so positive.. i think there are some slight negatives,too.. but all in all,we're both compatible.. (",)

2009-03-24T01:43:00.002+08:00

RhyMes And rEAsONS!

Can I kick it? To my Tribe that flows in layers,
Right now, Taufiq is a poem sayer,
At times, I'm a studio conveyor,
Mr. Dinkins, would you please be my mayor?
You'll be doing us a really big favor,
Boy this rhyme really has a lot of flavor.
When it comes to rhythms, I am your savior,
Follow us for the funky behavior,
Make a note on the rhythm we gave ya,
Feel free, drop your pants, check your ha-ir.
Do you like the garments that we wear?
I instruct you to be the obeyer,
A rhythm recipe that you'll savor,
Doesn't matter if you're minor or major,
Yes, the Tribe of the game, rhythm player,
As you inhale like a breath of fresh air.......

Baby said,there's something big happening on 190817! to find out what's on that date,follow me to this journey through my blog! haha..

i love Nurdiyanah binte Kamis! lalalalalalalala!

2009-03-22T20:46:00.002+08:00

"I received a letter from someone,last friday.. i wonder who sent it.."

"Can't wait to look at the content!"

"Woo! A picture of me!"

"I'm sorry viewers,the captions are all privacy protected.. haha!"

"The Picture says it all..."

and the letter is from NURDIYANAH BINTE KAMIS! the world's most sweetest girl! haha.. i like it very much! and i'm deeply touched by your creativity and such! i'm soooooooooo in love with you! and i have many surprises for you when you return here..

it's 3 days now... and i'm missing you so much already.. just feeling abit emotional but i think i can pull it off soon.. (",)

i signed up for the "grease-cycle" project work conducted by the chong pang CC.. the course teaches us on how to make a soap,using only recycle items.. it interests me so much,hence,i immediately sign up for the course.. hope i can play a part in saving the planet.. haha.. (",)

i had a great time with my buddies,last night.. aziah,sean and my sister.. we went to seleta dam and took a lot of pictures.. now waiting to grab those pics from sean.. and we went to a restaurant in yishun for our supper.. i miss them both very much.. been friends for 8 years,and still counting.. any outing will never be dull with them around.. cause with them around,it's all smile and laughter.. and i seriously mean it.. betul tak,kawan2? haha.. we'll meet up soon,alright.. (",)

a big fat shout-out to Siti Hawa for her 19th birthday,today!

and last but not least,................

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2009-03-19T22:58:00.002+08:00

baby is away to houston till 19th june.. she took her flight at around 7.25am,today.. well i hope she'll reach there safely.. i'm missing her,already.. how i wish she didn't have to go there.. i hate it when she's far away.. the feeling of wanting her,but she's not there.. if only houston is a few km away,i'll travel there,often!

and my wish came true on the 17th of march.. i finally had the opportunity of driving a someone special in my car! well,who else can it be other than NURDIYANAH BINTE KAMIS!

and we had fun cruising on singapore road.. we went to amk hub,mc donalds drive-thru,sembawang park,causeway point,our secret location and finally i sent her home.. we had our mc donalds dinner at sembawang park! i really had fun.. i mean,it's different from taking public transport.. when you drive,you have the freedom to travel anywhere you want by taking the shortest route.. (",)

"i'm hungry!"

"let's eat the fries,first!"

"i'm drooooooooooling!"

"pa-da-pa-pa-pa.. i'm loving it!"

"taxi driver for the day.."

2009-03-14T10:59:00.003+08:00

yesterday,was my first time driving at the singapore expressway! and also the first time i drove at night time.. it all went well.. singapore roads are much better to drive on.. haha..

and so,the first route i learnt was,the route from my house,to mustaffa centre.. i feel like i needed to learn that route first.. cause that's where i shop for my food stock.. :)

so,we reached mustaffa centre at 12 am.. oh ya.. before that,i picked up my bro in law at his workplace! i bought a street directory for myself.. oh.. and another reebok running shoes!

as for groceries,2 kg of chicken fillet and 1kg of fish fillet.. a carton of milk,a pack of cheese and a box of breakfast cereals.. that will last for about a month..

guys,check these out! it just arrived!!

pictures taken @ Mustaffa Centre!

That's my sister.. and the book that she pose with,bring us alot of memories.. our parents bought the whole stack of Peter and Jane books for our pre school reading.. (",)

2009-03-13T16:28:00.002+08:00

"In a wide body, and I'm sitting so thoed
Fresh set of glass, so I'm hogging up the road
Diamonds on the wood, definition of gripping grain
I'm in a zone I boss when I floss, riding for the set
And this paint that you see on this whip, is classified as wet
And for the hate, I still swang and I swang and I swang to the left
Pop my trunk, yep-yep-yep-yeeep "

i have my driving license now.. oooooo weeeeeee..

baby,let's get down to ride,alright? (",)

2009-03-10T17:29:00.002+08:00

this morning,my dad took leave to bring me for a ride to kota tinggi,johor.. i was suprised.. cause it'll be the first time i'll be driving around johor..

after breakfast,i drove up to kota tinggi.. in the car,there's my dad,mum and aunt.. i need more focus while driving there.. their drivers are all dare-devils.. they will take advantage of you,if you drive like a tortoise.. and i think they're impatient.. they will horn at you if you fail to give way to them.. but thank god,i didn't receive a honking from the drivers there..

overall,it was a good experience.. i wanna drive up to cameron highland,one day.. and on the way up,pop open the car top convertible.. yes,my dad has that car type.. and blast out rap music.. telling others that the garbage man is here..

and this song playing on my blog now,is my favourite jam while driving.. hahaha.. :)

i love diyanah binte kamis! (",)

2009-03-08T14:02:00.002+08:00

i lost my i-pod,a few days ago.. i misplace it somewhere at mc donalds,cck.. haiz.. there g0es my i-pod.. all 3000+ songs gone in a flash.. such a pain..

anyways,i'm planning to get the same mp3 player as baby.. from sony.. but i don't know which model number.. but it sure look slim and sleek.. :)

gonna purchase that,next week..

on a random note,it's been a fun outing with my dearest,anah.. i had the best of laughs with her.. she's a joker! no doubt about that.. i laughed till my lungs explodes! hahaha..

2009-03-01T22:43:00.003+08:00

I drink (garbage),because i want to the biggest,nastiest looking dude in the gym.. i'll do whatever it takes and i'm not afraid of walking that thin line between success and disaster.. Garbage gives me the juice to lift monster weights,day in and day out.. Screw "off days".. I'm all about training my ass off and rest isn't in the equation.. Garbage make this happen.. I'm huge,shredded and itching to hit my next workout.. When you see me,the garbage man,move aside 'cause i don't have time for your skinny ass...

2009-02-24T10:16:00.002+08:00

anyone wanna go to sentosa/underwater world with me?

i have 3 tickets to spare..

inclusive of entrance to sentosa and admission to the underwater world.. free beverage/food/door-gift/luge/sky ride..

it's from my pcg previous ballot..

those interested,please contact me,and we'll set a date for the outing..

thank you.. (",)

2009-02-18T20:56:00.003+08:00

wooooooooo!

today @ 2.30pm,the fedex man sent me a box that contains this ----------->

so,in conclusion,i say... the SUPPLEMENTS are in! Let the quest begins.....

and the fedex man will send this,too... on the 1st of march...
A solid reebok "pump" for my workout.. wooooooooooo kid! (",)

2009-02-17T18:22:00.004+08:00

Get ready...

The "Six Pack Abs World Challenge."

16 weeks of hell...

For one person to be crowned "Abs Man of The Year."

Will you live through the pain?.

Or will you give up when life gets tougher...

I dare you to take the challenge...

Taufiq, I dare you to win..

But just remind yourself, the harder the
challenge, the more glorious the triumph.

Stay tuned for next week for more info.

Your Abs Coach
Arnel Ricafranca

sorry,coach.. i want a big belly.. haha.. 6 pack abs looks ugly.. haha.. :)

hey people! guesssssss what??? i got my smile back on again... why??????
cause someone is back! yes! someone! and she is none other than........

Nurdiyanah Binte Kamis!

2009-02-14T16:58:00.003+08:00

today,at 9 in the morning,someone knocked on my door.. i opened it.. he was holding a basket that was filled with bear,a stalk of rose,card and a also a box of chocolate..

i asked,"yes?".. he said,"sir,someone request this to be send to you".. i was kinda shocked.. haha.. and after reading the invoice,it was from my future GF! Nurdiyanah binte kamis is her name!

look at what she gave me!

thanks,Baby! you're the sweetest and the sweetest of my addiction.. weeee! white chocolate with strawberry bits! :)))))

2009-02-14T00:50:00.002+08:00

valentine's is boring cause i have no one special to celebrate with.. so valentine's suck..

but to all the lovers out there,happy valentines!

*grin teeth*

i wanna be in my own world.. inside a music box.. living happily inside.. dancing to the beat of acid jazz.. a place where i could be away from everyday rush.. a place i can unwind at.. a place that will put my mine to ease..

inkheart is good! go watch it.. i like the name "capricorn"! haha.. :)

2009-02-12T10:08:00.002+08:00

thanks to a good friend of mine,who brought along his lappy and a portable modem.. now i can do a mini update on my blog!

so here goes..

hmmm.. let's see.. okay.. it's boasting time! haha.. nope.. it's just that i'm happy what i've achieved.. who doesn't yearn for success? haha.. so,i managed to pass my marlinespike and also my weapon handling audit/test! it's such a relief to clear the first phase.. (",)

on a random note.. check this out!

Thank you for ordering from Bodybuilding.com! We appreciate your business, Mohammad Taufiq.

Your order number is 6006529.

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whoa! first time i ordered supplements from the U.S! but i don't know where is IDAHO.. haha..

Invoice:

INVOICE

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Order number: #6006529
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First Name:	Mohammad
Last Name:	Taufiq
Address:	Blk 312 ,Sembawang Drive #16-494
City:	Sembawang Drive
State:	Singapore
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Products Ordered

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CLABS056	Controlled Labs White Flood, 320 Tablets	$38.99	1	$38.99
CHAMP092	Champion Multi Vitamin + Energy, 90 Tablets	$8.99	1	$8.99
PL155	Prolab Advanced Caffeine, 60 Tablets	$7.49	1	$7.49
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Subtotal:	$134.45
Coupon savings:	$10.00
Discounted subtotal:	$124.45
Shipping cost:	$39.99

Total:	$164.44

but it's $246+ in singapore currency.. and fedex will deliver it to my doorstep in about 5 days time! but,too bad.. i don't get to sign the delivery receipt.. i'm still away at that time.. so.. mummy dearest will be in-charge of signing it.. (",)

All shipment travel activity is displayed in local time for the location:

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Shipment information sent to FedEx

2009-02-02T19:02:00.002+08:00

Dear Readers,

Due to the current courses that i will be attending,i would like to inform all,that,i will be on a long hiatus.. will probably return by next month.. but do read my old posts to kill-time for yourself.. take care everyone! (",)

-Taufiq

2009-01-29T16:51:00.002+08:00

Time Check: 1651 hours

Day 19

poor baby.. she had an accident during a baseball game.. i can understand the pain that she's going through now.. well.. hold on,baby.. it will recover soon,alright? please don't say such things to yourself,okay? you're perfectly fine.. and i don't feel good looking at her baring her pain.. i wish i could be near her.. but it's the impossible.. i really feel useless.. and i'm gonna give you a good massage once you come back.. i promise.. ",)

and i ate 20 eggs (without yolk) in the morning.. preparation is easy.. just scramble it.. add a slice of cheese.. and that's it... my breakfast.. full of protein! ",)

2009-01-28T17:31:00.002+08:00

Time check:1731 hours

Day 18

First thing first,baby dislikes it when i went away during our webcam session.. i leave her a while just now for my bottle of yakult and look what she wrote on my tagboard.. haha.. so naughty! well,i'm gonna place a baby cockroach in your bag,soon! haha.. just joking laaa! ",)

the PCG DnD will be held this 5th of march at orchard hotel! theme for the DnD is halloween.. and i'm thinking of what costume to put on.. maybe as freddie? nightmare killer of elm street.. i need something with a mask.. so people will not notice me.. ",)

2009-01-27T09:02:00.002+08:00

Time Check:0902 hours

Day 17

gong xi fa cai to all my chinese friends worldwide.. huat on the year of the OX!

alright,i managed to get a glimpse of the eclipse yesterday evening.. it happened around 1810 hours.. i've been waiting like about 2 hours or so.. but the sight was just,wow! haha.. i never seen an eclipse before.. but i just did yesterday and it's truly unexplainable.. well,scientist predicted that the eclipse will happen again 3-4 times this year.. so,do check that out..

and also yesterday,i have this "romantic" feeling to write baby a lil poem.. words that came straight from my heart.. although we're so far apart,our love still stands strong.. ",)

i wrote her this;

"This Poem is dedicated to my dearest baby,nurdiyanah.. baby,i managed to script this out while i look at our picture.. i love you and i love us.. your smile,means the whole world to me.. my inspiration,my aspiration you are.. and baby,you're everything i need.. i love you so much.. muacks! :)

All I Have To Give

You're the first thing I think of
each morning when I rise...
You're the last thing I think of
each night when I close my eyes...
You're in each thought I have
and every breath I take..
My feelings are growing stronger
with every move I make...
I want to prove I love you
But that's the hardest part.
So, I'm giving all I have to give
to you... I give my heart..

© Mohammad Taufiq Jumaat "

and she replied;

hey sayang! =)

whoaaaaa! u're soooo good! ur writings are just whooooaaaa! and.. u're just sooo goood with words! i'm sorry i can't express ma feelings in words. i'm not good at expressing ma feelings. i'm just not good at it. all da writings that u wrote to me.. i read it over n over again. it's just sooo goood and soo sincere. i'll keep your heart safely in ma heart. and...a guy writing to a gal... whoaaa! sooo hard to find! i mean usually a gal writes for a guy. poems and stuff. they express their feelings to their partners and stuff. bt, we're different. u're da one writing to me. i feel soo special! haha! =) at da same time.. i feel bad cos i didn't even write anything nice to you. and i did nothing to make you feel special. i'm soooo lame! you're such a special guy, sayang. i'm sooo lucky to have you! =)

hahaha! baby! you're so adorable.. just by them little things you do, just by them little things you say,makes me feel special.. you just didn't notice that.. and i'm being frank and honest here.. :)
and yes,we are different.. i want us to be different.. different from all the couples out there.. it's just us in our own world,with our own rules.. (",)

and i truly love this new song by soulja boy.. he changed his style of beat.. no more fruity loops kinda beats.. it's all professional now with his new beat master.. and this song is a perfect explaination of what is happening at my current situation.. and baby,loves this song,too.. (",)

the lyrics;

Kiss me through the phone

Baby u kno that I miss u
I wanna get wit chu
Tonight but I can't now
Baby girl and that's the issue
Girl u kno I miss u
I just wanna kiss u
But I can't rite now so baby
Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u lata on)

Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u when I get home)

Baby I kno that u like me
U my future wifey
Souljaboytellem
Yeah u can be my boonie
I can be ya clyde
U can be my wife
Text me, call me
I need u in my life
Yea all day
Everyday I need ya
And eveytime I see ya
My feelings gets deeper
I miss ya, I miss ya
I really wanna kiss ya
But I can't
678 triple 9 8212

Baby u kno that I miss u
I wanna get wit chu
Tonight but I can't now
Baby girl and that's the issue
Girl u kno I miss u
I just wanna kiss u
But I can't rite now so baby
Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u lata on)

Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u when I get home)

Baby I've been thinkin
Lately so much about u
Everything about u
I like it, I love it
Kissing u in public
Thinking nothing of it
Roses by the dozen
Talkin on da phone
Baby u so sexy
Ya voice is so lovely
I love ya complexion
I miss ya, I miss ya
I really wanna kiss ya
But I can't
678 triple 9 8212
Baby u kno that I miss u
I wanna get wit chu
Tonight but I can't
Now baby girl and that's the issue
Girl u kno I miss u
I just wanna kiss u
But I can't rite now so baby
Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u lata on)

Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u when I get home)

She call my phone like da(20x)
We on da phone like da(20x)
We takin pics like da(20x)
She dial my numba like da(10x)
678 triple 9 8212

Baby u kno that I miss u
I wanna get wit chu
Tonight but I can't
Baby girl and that's the issue
Girl u kno I miss u
I just wanna kiss u
But I can't rite now so baby
Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u lata on)

Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u when I get home)

2009-01-25T18:38:00.002+08:00

Time Check:1840 hours

Day 15

e-mails from baby... :

hey sayang!

yeah! i did! i slept arnd 8.30pm ytd! soooooooooooo fast! i'm sorry. wanted to go online.. bt, i jus slept all the way till morning! i even forgot to wash ma face and brush ma teeth! haha. bt, i dreamt of you! i dreamt that i came bck in march, without u knowing.. and i gave u a suprise by going to ur hse! and i hug you soooo tightly that u're out of breathe!!!!!! seee... i'm strong am i? hehe. i miss you more! sayang! sayang! sayang! sayang! sayang! muaaaccckkkkksss! =)) i'm sorry again.

I really wish you could come back soon... cause it's so bored without you,around..

sayang!!!! =))

i knoe why u got da urged to check ur email! cos..... u're hoping that i will reply u! and thnk god.. i did!!!! =)))

i dun want to sleeeep early!! bluek! cos if i do.. i won't get to see you or chat with you! =( i wish it will happen too!! it depends on ma parents! cos... ma parents still dun knoe that i'm staying here till june.. ma sis still haven ask them.. so if they say no... i haf to go bck in march!!!!!! wooohoooo! =) seriously.. i'm lonely here. i mean it's fun and all. i really like it here. i'm gettin use to it and stuff... bt i'm missing everyone especially you. it's just not right not to be close with da person u love. i mean everyone's in singapore, having fun. i'm all alone here! i feel sooo left out! i want to party wif you all night! get drunk wif pepsi and ice lemon tea. do all da stuff that we want. finish up da boooks! omg!!!!!! it's gonna be soooooo much fuuun! let's pray it will happen! =) looooooooooooooooooooovvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee mohammad taufiq jumaat soooooooooooooooooooooo muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucccccccccccccccchhhhhhhhhhh! muacks! =))

baby,do make the right choice,alright? if it meant to be in june,i'll wait.. and also if you decided to stay there after your studies,it's still your choice and i hope your future will be all good... sorry,baby.. i still can't stop thinking about what we discussed just now.. i shall try my very best to stop worrying... and i hope fate has some good news for us in the near future.. :)

2009-01-24T16:25:00.002+08:00

Time Check:1625 hours

DAY 14

today,marks the 2nd week since she arrived there.. i feel so bored without her.. yes,there are friends to cheer you around.. but,i simply can't put off my mind to think about her.. it's always been her.. well baby,i hope you are doing fine there..

i feel uneasy.. bout this fever and my injury.. i hate to be down with fever.. it really restrict my movements.. and you can feel that all your muscles are weak.. and i do struggle to get off from bed.. and this injury.. on my right shoulder.. the pain is so freaking unbearable,that i woke up most of the time in the wee hours during my sleep..

today and the upcoming days will be a boring week.. my prediction..

just wanna give up,i'm feeling so lazy.. but i stay afloat and fight back like the navy..

2009-01-22T22:51:00.003+08:00

Time Check: 2252 hours..

Day 11

i received an e-mail from baby telling me something good about her meeting her new friends there.. well,i guess,after 3 weeks,you'll be settling down fully.. no more stranger to the place.. and get well soon from the injuries,alright?

I gotta scrap my gym program for awhile now.. my right shoulder is badly bruised.. doctor said that the muscles on my right shoulder is stretched fully.. and i can't carry heavy weights now.. but he predicts,that i can recover sooner than the appointed dates..

and i'm still having my high fever.. and i swear it's not feeling any better..

2009-01-21T18:32:00.003+08:00

Time Check:1832 Hours

Day 10

Just came back from in-service.. as usual.. the topics are all dry.. so dry that i'm dried.. haha.. (",)

wee! me and baby exchanged our very first love letter via e-mail!

haha.. and i'm gonna post it up here..

starting with what i wrote her.. heee.. :

Dearest Baby!

The day you came into my life a miracle happened... One minute I was resigned to the fact that love was a part of my past, something although painful to think about, was nothing more than mere memory.... And then there you were....

You opened my heart in ways it had never been opened before.... You awakened a part of me that had lay dormant all of life.... Although I had loved and been loved before, never had it been so intense and so deep as what we feel for each other..... This much I am sure of, we share a love so true that I have never before experienced the true joy of complete empowering, soul-felt love as we share....

We have tried to deny our love time and time again to no avail.... The comfort I feel in knowing that we can disagree, we can get through the roughest of times and still know in our hearts that we can't live without each other is what makes it even more special.... "It wouldn't matter if it didn't matter..." Baby, you matter to me and I know in my heart I truly matter to you.... I am secure in your love as I know you are in mine.... What more could we ask for than to be truly loved as we do each other and have found the one we have both been searching for all our lives....

You know that i love to express my feelings through words.. and baby,i didn't compose you this love letter for the sake of making you smile and impressing you.. but instead,this is how i felt about us so far.. and.. believe me,that all this words come purely from my heart.. and it's the truth.. from the start to they beginning.. they know i speak the truth,cause i was never taught to lie..

Love Always,

Taufiq!

and this is her reply:

Dear

I have never been very good with words in expressing my feelings to anyone, not even my own family. I tend to bottle it all up and keep it to myself but it doesn’t mean that I am heartless.

I am honoured and flattered to know that I am constantly in your heart and mind and I want you to know too that you are and have always been part of me from the beginning to this time eventhough we’re separated by the oceans.

The times we spent together are beautiful memories that I played over and over again in my mind - ones that I never want to forget or lose touch of. And, I do in my heart still wishes to build more memories between us.

Each time I wake in the morning or before I lay myself to sleep, I will look you up… every opportunity that I get to see or hear from you warms and makes my heart smile.

i love you.

isn't she sweeet? haha.. i'm so addicted to her.. and she has pursue a new interest in baseball! wow! and she gonna play it everyday from monday to friday! let's see.. if she exercises everyday,i'll be looking at a sizzling hot,lean and sexy her,when she comes back! wooohooo! *Waving hands in the air*

on a random note,i'm having a high fever now.. i feel so week.. and the thermometer reads 38.5deg.. that's sky high.. well,i hope a dose of panadols might help me recover soon..

2009-01-20T19:05:00.004+08:00

Time Check: 1907 Hours

Day 9

E-mail from Baby! 1/2

hey sayang!

i miss you! i wanna see you bt u're not online. i guess you're in gym. niwaes, i'm gonna play baseball tmr! haha! first time playing it! =) saaaaaaaaaaayaaaaaaaaaaaaaang...... sayang! sayang! sayang! i jus love calling you! it makes me happy! haha. =) i just feel insecure here. maybe becos i'm still new here. and u knoe me... i'm not independent! i haf to be independent! urggh! love ya! love ya! love ya! oh hawa, was asking abt us.. how are we coping with da long distance and asked if we're in a relationship.. told her.. we're good and we'll be official in may! can't wait! can't wait! can't wait! i misssssssssssssssss you sooooooooooooooo much! even though we've just webcam ytd. i feel like we didn't see each other for months! five months to goooooooooooooooooooooooo! and four months to gooooooooooooooooooo! muacks! =)

loooooooooooooveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! =)

2/2

hey sayang! =)

i'm boreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed! you knoe what i'm gonna do? i'm gonna think of.................... you! you! you! muaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaccccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkksssssssssssssssssss! i love you. yes, i dooooo! =)

weeeeeeeeeeee! she's in loveeeeee with me!! me,me,me! okay.. i'm all crazy now.. crazy over you.. can somebody help? i think i'm lovesick like dog with canine sensitivity.. haha..

Yes,Baby.. I Miss you,too.. infact,you're on my mind 24/7.. never a day,the thought of you,slip off my mind..

and yup,we're gonna be an official couple this may,which is about 4 months ago.. this may,it's been a year since we know each other.. i'm soo looking forward to this one..

and the plans are all in.. only waiting to execute them,when you return in june.. (",)

And the tongue be poking out.. haha.. we're not crazy.. we're just having our little fun session down here.. in fact,it's our trademark.. haaa! (",)

P/s: Girls who sent messages on tagged asking me to add them on MSN.. Sorry,But i'm truly and deeply in love with my ms dimples already! infact,i'll only be chatting with her on MSN.. so every seconds is precious.. so,message other available guys,instead.. thank you.. (",)

2009-01-19T08:51:00.003+08:00

time check:0852 hours

day 8

oh gosh.. i'm soooooooooooo jealous to see loving couples all around! i want mine,too! haha..

i managed to find a buyer to take over my farm.. after 2 years of manning it,me and my partner have come to a decision to sell it away..

the reason is because,we have been increasingly busy with our personal life.. and also the rental price has been increasing,lately.. so to fight off this recession,we are calling it quit..

i feel sad.. remembering the first time we worked hard together to make our farm a pleasant place to be in.. all the sweat and time and efforts we put in.. but it's been a good experience.. i'm a farmer at 19.. and i'm proud of it.. it's my passion.. my blood.. i hope to be able to make a come back in the future.. only time will tell..

2009-01-17T17:59:00.004+08:00

time check:1801 hours

Day 7

I just had a long 6 hours chat cum webcam-ing session with baby.. it was the longest session ever..
and mind you,it's 4am if it's 6 pm here.. told her to sleep but she still wanna webcam.. haha.. that shows,she misses me alot! (",)

we talked about lots of thing.. mostly about our future.. i really love her mindset.. she has got great visions.. and i truly believe that she'll accomplish what she aim,one day.. here's some extract from our conversation..

baby,hope you don't mind.. heee.. (",)

i suggested to her,to loan money from her parents for her course payments..
she replied:
c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
bt i want to use ma own money
that's why 2009
supposed to ba ma woking year
haha
2010 ma study year
bt everything is out of control!!
i'm here till june?
4 months to save?
wth!!!

About the possibility of her long term goals:

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
yesss
i knoe
haha
bt, i think i can
if i put ma mind into it
everyone can do it
it's either they want it or not

i thought that was the best answer.. (",)

She asked:

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
uh huh
bt atleast i knoe... if i study here.. i still haf you, rite?
i just need to knoe that

i replied

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
yeah..!
cause by the time you study,,
we're official already! :)

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
great!
=)
all settled!

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
that's da only thing i was thinking
=)

About our future relationship:

c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
u think we're still young to be serious abt relationship?

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
not,for me..
:)
you think you are?

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
honestly... yessss
bt tink bck again.. noo
cos i am serious wif you!

weeee!! i'm so happy.. smile so wide... (",)

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
i want to show everyone that we're not about puppy love or monkey love
we are serious!
haha

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
haha... you're so cute la.. :)

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
and we can achieve what we want in both studies and relationship
i want to show that to ma parents..

i was really amazed by her goals.. and i want to be the one to help her achieve those..

About me,meeting her parents in the future:

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
awwwwww!
great visions,baby!

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
i dun want them to think i'm wasting ma time wif sum unknown guy!

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
i soooo like your mindset!
haha..
i fear you parents will think that when they see mw.. :)
*me

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
haha
no they won't!
and u're like sooo one in a million guy!!
u dun smoke!!!
u dun drink!
omg!
u're just perfect
=)

weeee! i'm sooo touched! (",)

About me studying in poly,in 2 years time..

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
what if alot of gals fall for you?
how?
ask ur numbers
flirt wif you
get naughty wif you
i'll be jealous!
i tell you first!

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
i'll show them a fake "engagement" ring!
how bout that?

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
they dun really care though

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
you pick me up from school,baby!

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
hahaha

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
but,,,
i'll reject them..
seriously..
hear me out..

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
what if they're super hot!
super sexy
super pretty

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
i waited for a year to be with you.. how can i get over you in just a day?
no,i don't have the looks..
don't worry.. :)

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
u doooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
i'll do this in school (Show blur face)

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
u waited for me for one year!

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
yes!!

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
i shud make u wait for another year!

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
alaaaaaaa
really?

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
noooooooooooooooo!

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
jahat!!

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
if not
u'll run to other gals
trust me!
haha

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
i think the poly will not have pretty girls.. :)

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
yes they do!

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
how you know?

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
lots of them!
cos i knoe

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
tak la..

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
and i bet...
da gals will fall for you
trust me on this
=)
i'm not jealous
saying da fact

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
i'll show them your love bite!

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
hahahaha

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
i think they won't be daring to just approach me even though i tell them i'm taken.. :)
confirm!

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
they will!

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
nooo!

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
hahahahaha
i'm kidding
do tell me wen there's gals that want you!
=)

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
noooooo!!!!

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
u won't telll me?

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
you'll leave me immediately!

[c=48]diyanah =))[/c] says:
ape seh!
no i won't!
i won't be that bad!!!
no secrets, okay?
=)

My Past Is Better Than Your Present,My Present Is Better Than Your Future.. says:
i think i'm gonna ignore them.. cause i'm scared i'll lose your hand..
alright,no secret..

that's about it.. hehe.. others are all secret.. i love you baby! 5 month till you return and i'm the second person you wanna see after your parents! weeeee!! (",)

2009-01-16T18:11:00.002+08:00

time check:1811 hours

Day 6

aches and aches and more aches.. and the muscles is really growing.. i can feel the blood rushing in.. and those fibres expanding! woohooo! all i need now is a full rest to let it recover..

February is a busy month for me.. the PCG will be having a sea craft competition.. and i am chosen to be as a marlinespike and weapon handling specialist.. damn.. i'm already in my ORD mood.. and something so important had to get in my way.. it's time to refresh everything i've learned from the book.. and it'll start on sunday.. lazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzy..

does absensce really makes the heart grow fonder?

i say yes! why?

cause ever since baby left for a place,so faraway,my love for her grew tremendously.. and the best thing is,she feels the same way,too.. honestly,she was the one who said it first.. i think the same way.. hehe.. well baby,let's keep it this way.. it's been a smooth journey so far.. and yes,when you're far apart,you are my fairy gf.. and fairy gf can fly around.. so,if you see me flirting around,give me a big,tight,juicy,thunderous slap..

e-mail from baby!

hey sayang!

it's okay to cry. it's betta to cry than keeping it in your heart. let your emotions take over you. haha! =) cck park! i remember that park. haha. i won't get naughty with them.. i only get naughty wif ma sayang... love ya! love ya! love ya! i can't wait to biteeeeeeee you!! =))

and yes.. she'll only get naughty with me,me,me! *jumps to the sky*.. and she can't wait to biteeeeeee me.. uh-oh.. i shall make my muscles grow.. so,when she bite me,she'll lose some teeth also! haha.. joking,baby..

poor baby,she said that her lips and skins is all dry due to the cold weather there.. she wanna go back.. baby,apply lip moisturizer and skin lotion after your morning shower and before you go to sleep,alright? and please.. please.. please hydrate yourself with PLAIN water.. yes.. plain water.. not cola,soda and syrup drinks! see la.. it's my turn to lecture you.. grrrrrrrrrrrrr.... naughty girl! but i still love you,though.. see..nurdiyanah,i care sooooooo much about you okay! (",)

2009-01-15T15:22:00.003+08:00

Time Check:1523 hours

Gym Day!

My biceps are expanding! yay! hard work sure pays off.. i met a couple of new friends at the gym.. and they're really friendly.. they gave me good advice and tips to my workout.. much appreciated dude.. and i'll see you guys again,tomorrow! tomorrow? yes,tomorrow.. my gym day would be like:

my first off,which is right after my night shift,and also once before i start my night shift.. so,in total,it's 4 times to the gym per week..

baby,don't be mad alright,i'll promise you i'll have sufficient rest.. heee.. (",)

e-mail from baby!!

hey sayang!

told ya.. i'm psychic! =) hahaa! yes! yes! yes! u're a psychic too! i did place a camera in your room.. near da window! hahahahaha! u betta slow it down, okay? good sayang! sleep at 10pm and eat like a monster! hehehe! are you sure you only get naughty with me? bluek! of course.. you're mine! no one can take you away from me!! hahahhaahahha! love ya! muacks!
sayang awak lagi banyak! bluek!

she place a camera on my window!! you wanna be like totally-spies,right? haha.. and of course i will only be naughty with you,if not you'll chop of my hands when you're back.. haha.. but don't get naughty with the hot guys there,alright? i've also place a camera somewhere you wouldn't know.. hahaha.. bluek!! (",)

I dream of you,
and me on a ron-de-vou,
Somewhere far away,
on a trip for two,
we'll take a ride a,
convertible on a straight highway,
Girl nows the time to lay you down and make you mine..

Candy Star, Silver Moon, Cherry Rain, Summer June, Chocolate me, Caramel you, My lucky charm is
what you are,
Caramel, Candycane, Sweeter than Sugarcane,
love it when you call my name,
Lucky Charm is what you are..

I'll pour some drinks,
then we'll play some CD's,
I'll take your hand,
and pull you,
Up close to me,
Now tell me can you hear the voice of love calling you and me,
Girl nows the time to lay you down and make you mine...

2009-01-13T16:31:00.002+08:00

Time Check: 1632hrs

Day 4

only god knows how much i miss her.. and she told me that there's alot of hot guys around there.. haha.. which guy will not be jealous upon hearing that? but she soon said that,despite all those boys,she knows that she has me here,in singapore! awwwwwww... (",)

today is gym day.. and i depleted lots of electrolytes and stamina and energy.. and after gym session,i drank 3 litres of water in a 2 hour time-frame.. that goes to show how much i sweated in the gym.. i bet it can even fill up a bucket.. haha.. but this shoulder injury had been bugging me.. despite that,i still train that particular part,and now i'm aching in pain.. so,serve me right..

thank you farid and fadzly for accompanying me to bbdc.. you guys are the best.. i've already booked my revision practical lessons and also my next attempt TP date.. (",)

"Blood Of A Slave,Heart Of A king"

2009-01-12T17:44:00.003+08:00

Time Check: 5.47pm

Day 3

went for my TP today.. well,i flunk it.. real bad.. i was awarded 40 points.. all from road.. i know it's very disappointing.. but i'm not disheartened.. sorry guys.. we can't go out by my own transport.. i'm retaking my test in march.. insya'allah i can make it next time.. pray for me,okay?

and baby gave me great assurance regarding this future relationship of ours.. i hope she don't mind that i'm posting her e-mail reply.. here goes.. (",)

hey sayang, =)

i read your blog. you know.. i really want to make it happen right? you've got to trust me in this. it's not confirm that i'm studying here. i just said i might. bt, well... if you think you can't deal with long distance relationship. i won't force you . bt, i really hope we can make it. i really want to make it happen. i really want to grow old with you. i really love you. you do know that, right? you know... i really believe that we can make all the things that we said and wish for happen. we can do it, sayang. just have faith okay? we can really make it happen. i hope that i'll be bck in march. i'm already missing you soooooooooooooooooooo much. i seriously looooooooooooooooveeeeeeee you!

i do have faith in us.. but sometimes,when you're far away,i feel kinda insecure and lost.. but baby,you've put me right back on track.. and yes,i'll have a go at long distance relationship with you.. i don't wanna flirt around here,cause i got my eyes on you.. and it will hurt me so much to let you go.. but this reply,proves how much you love me.. and that i shall patiently wait for your return..

te quiero.. (",)

2009-01-11T18:20:00.002+08:00

managed to webcam with baby just now.. she looks tired after that long hours trip.. well i need to let out something which is bothering me.. and i really want to let it out..

she said that she might be furthering her studies there.. coming back here for a short while and then return,for her studies.. i really wish that she won't be furthering her studies there.. oh gosh.. am i that selfish? i mean it's for her own good.. and i'm very supportive to people who wanna upgrade themselves..

but at the same time,i'll miss her deep.. i mean deeply.. i wonder what happened to myself.. i keep on having wild imaginations.. which is,thoughts of her,migrating over there..

i really wish someone could give me a big tight slap.. be appreciative of what i have around.. i just wanna feel her close to me.. i just wanna be loved..

and long distance relationships.. i wish i don't have to even think about it.. it really makes my heart-ache.. yearning for someone special so far away from you is hard.. try it and you'll know..

p/s: baby,if i work hard for our future relationship,will you make it happen?

sigh.. i wanna throw myself against the wall..............

2009-01-11T07:51:00.003+08:00

Time Check: 0752hrs

Day 2

i received an sms from baby,at around 0615hrs,informing me that she has already arrived in houston.. syukur al'hamdullilah,that she arrived there safely..

i didn't sleep well last night.. i turn and toss at night,thinking bout her.. i think i really need some melatolin in my pill box.. that's sleeping pill..

well,i'll webcam with baby,later.. but for now,i hope she has a good rest at her sister's place.. (",)

AUGUST = THUG
You are straight up 'Gangsta'! Attractive personality. Very sexy!

2009-01-10T21:43:00.003+08:00

Time check: 2143hrs on my lappy..

let's do a countdown till baby return.. today is day 1.. she boarded the plane to japan at around 0730hrs,local time.. she's stopping by japan before transiting into another plane to houston.. and today is the first time i called her through phone.. (",)

DAY 1

baby,i'm missing you alot already!! well,i hope you reach your destination safely,just like what others hope for.. you must be having a good time in the plane.. well,i can only look through the clouds..

she sms'ed me at about 1500hrs,telling me she's in japan already.. she's still nervous about the next flight.. well i hope my shirt,which she brings along,will help protect her.. haha..

my day was pretty much average,today.. nothing much at work.. just moving the boat around to and fro..

i was on my way home and boarded the bus to the interchange.. a blind couple was alighting at the front door,so i helped them with the directions.. but when i finally boarded the bus,others stare at me.. to me they'll probably be like,"wanna act kind" or probably i caused some delay in the operation.. well,some singaporeans are way ugly.. i mean,you gotta help those in needs,right?

like my baby.. i remembered,at lot 1,popular bookstore... we went in,and suddenly a pram,which has a baby inside,suddenly flip over.. she was quick enough to help out that mother and that pram.. i'm so proud of her for her quick thinking and kindness act.. now that's my baby.. (",)

2009-01-09T11:43:00.002+08:00

i'll be missing someone for a couple of months.. it's either gonna be 2 or 7 months long.. someone so close that i've known for awhile.. and i don't know how to cope with her absence.. all i could do is, shed tears like a cry-baby..

times like this,i wish i was in a coma bed.. wake up only when she returns..

2009-01-08T10:11:00.002+08:00

Dear Nurdiyanah,

Hey Beautiful, I just wanted to do something simple to say I love you and to put that smile I love so much back on your face. I want everyone to know how much you mean to me. Ever since you have entered my life, I've been flying on Cloud 9 and I have not come down yet..

I tell you this everyday, but you are the most beautiful person I know, inside and out and I see that more clearly with each passing day... I love everything about you, about us... You do something to me that no other has, you have made me so happy, the happiest I've ever been... You give me the most amazing feelings inside, the feeling of being in love with you...

I still don't know what I did to be so lucky to have you in my life, my dream come true... I am so thankful though... In this short time that we've been together, we have grown so much and I can't wait to see what the future holds for us... I love you, Diyanah, with all my heart and soul, always and forever!

Love always,

Mohammad Taufiq

(",)

and have a safe trip to good ol' Houston! although i could only dream of it,i hope you'll be having a great time there.. the ski equipments are waiting for you there.. haha.. (",)

2009-01-07T00:22:00.002+08:00

body analysis-75% till completion..

estimated day/month to complete: 31st june 09

2009-01-04T22:04:00.004+08:00

i've finally see some improvements on my physique.. my shoulders muscles is clearly visible now.. and my chest is expanding.. both biceps and triceps have their cuts already.. but there's more work to be done now..

i wanna focus on abs.. just abs.. long term goal would be,shredding it to the bones.. i can only cee 4 of the packs in my abs.. the bottom two is covered by a FATS! hehe..

pictures of my progress..

haha.. sorry for the facial looks.. i just ended my jogging session and i'm too fatigued to take a good picture.. haha..

2008-12-30T12:04:00.003+08:00

i think i just spend a good 20 minutes reading an online article entitled "Do graduate parents really produce intelligent kids?"

i believe this is a very good debate regarding this issue.. i'm posting on my blog,the exact extract i read some 20 mins ago.. here goes.. (",)

Do graduate parents really produce intelligent kids?

Sun, Dec 28, 2008
My Sinchew/Asia News Network

Bringing up good kids

Educators, sociologist and psychologists have debated this topic for decades with varying emphasis. Most parents today are convinced that if they provide as many opportunities as possible for the child, they have done their duty and their children are destined to become "success stories". But this may not be as simple as it seems.

Schools in Malaysia for example, experience time and time again the extraordinary performance from children who come from poor, neglected and even broken homes. This proves that so much depends on a combination of factors both in the heritage and the environment in motivating and enabling children to be proficient in what they do and excel in what they undertake.

As parents, we need to dismantle our mindsets on what we may think are advantages or opportunities. A grand home with the latest computers, or even an up-to-date library does not guarantee the making of a scholar or a genius. Fractured relationships in a home may act as a motivation for one child and completely discourage another. Similarly, good health and early training may make one child into an athlete but may prove futile with another.

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Enthusiastic parents can, with the best of intentions overload and completely exasperate the child with options for which he has no inclination or talent. Parents need to keep their ears close to the ground to hear what children are saying and they need to have their eyes up above recognizing that the Creator has given each child a special gift. To provide space, encourage, and cultivate that gift is really the way to success but too often parents have their own agendas for the child's life and make a mess with their well-intended strategies to achieve their own ends in the life of their child.

We need to take our cue from a certain country in which graduate parents were encouraged to have more children as it was assumed that they would produce more intelligent human beings. But it has never been that way. A humble clerk and a housewife have produced a string of brilliant children. How does one account for this?

Talents and temperaments often seem to be inherited but given a different environment and circumstances; where the emotional climate is conducive to the flourishing of latent talent, a child can develop exceptional ability and character. Let us be sensitive to their leanings and help them to develop the uniqueness that is theirs.

Question: Tell me why some kids with every advantage and opportunity seem to turn out bad, while others raised in terrible homes become pillars in the community. I know one young man who grew up in squalid circumstances, yet he is such a fine person today. How did his parents manage to raise such a responsible son when they didn't even seem to care?

Answer: That illustrates just the point I have been trying to make. Neither heredity nor environment will account for all human behaviour. There is something else there - something from within - that also operates to make us who we are. Some behaviour is caused, and some plainly isn't.

Several years ago, for example, I had dinner with two parents who had unofficially "adopted" a thirteen-year-old boy. This youngster followed their son home one afternoon and asked if he could spend the night. As it turned out, he stayed with them for almost a week without so much as a phone call coming from his mother. It was later learned that she works sixteen hours a day and has no interest in her son. Her alcoholic husband divorced her several years ago and left town without a trace. The boy had been abused, unloved, and ignored through much of his life.

Given this background, what kind of kid do you think he is today - a druggie? A foul-mouthed delinquent? A lazy, insolent bum? No. He is polite to adults; he is a hard worker; he makes good grades in school and enjoys helping around the house. This boy is like a lost puppy who desperately wants a good home. He begged the family to adopt him officially so he could have a real father and a loving mother. His own mum couldn't care less.

How could this teenager be so well disciplined and polished despite his lack of training? I don't know. It is simply within him. He reminds me of my wonderful friend David Hernandez. David and his parents came to America illegally from Mexico more than fifty years ago and nearly starved to death before they found work. They eventually survived by helping to harvest the potato crop throughout the state of California. During this era, David lived under trees or in the open fields. His father made a stove out of an oil drum half-filled with dirt. The open camp fire was the centrepiece of their home.

David never had a roof over his head until his parents finally moved into an abandoned chicken coop. His mother covered the boarded walls with cheap wallpaper, and David thought they were living in luxury. Then one day, the city of San Jose condemned the area, and David's "house" was torn down. He couldn't understand why the community would destroy so fine a place.

Given this beginning, how can we explain the man that David Hernandez became? He graduated near the top of his class in high school and was granted a scholarship to college. Again, he earned high marks and four years later entered Loma Linda University School of Medicine. Once more, he scored in the top 10 percent of this class and continued in a residency in obstetrics and gynaecology. Eventually, he served as a professor of OB-GYN at both Loma Linda University and the University of Southern California medical schools. Then, at the peak of his career, his life began to unravel.

I'll never forget the day Dr. Hernandez called me on the telephone. He had just been released from the hospital following a battery of laboratory tests. The diagnosis? Sclerosing cholangitis, a liver disorder that was invariably fatal at that time. We lost this fine husband, father, and friend six years later at the age of forty-three. I loved him like a brother, and I still miss him today.

Again, I ask, how could such discipline and genius come from these infertile circumstances? Who would have thought that this deprived Mexican boy sitting out there in the dirt would someday become one of the most loved and respected surgeons of his era? Where did the motivation originate? From what bubbling spring did his ambition and thirst for knowledge flow? He had no books, took no educational trips, knew no scholars. Yet he reached for the sky. Why did it happen to David Hernandez and not the youngster with every advantage and opportunity?

Why have so many children of prominent and loving parents grown up in ideal circumstances only to reject it all for the streets of Atlanta, San Francisco, or New York? Good answers are simply not available. Some kids seem born to make it and others are determined to fail. Someone reminded me recently that the same boiling water that softens the carrot also hardens the egg. Likewise, some individuals react positively to certain circumstances and others negatively. We don't know why.

Two things are clear to me from this understanding. First, parents have been far too quick to take the credit or blame for the way their children turn out. Those with bright young superstars stick out their chests and say, "Look what we accomplished." Those with twisted and irresponsible kids wonder, "Where did we go wrong?" Well, neither is entirely accurate. No one would deny that parents play an important role in the development and training of their children. But they are only part of the formula from which a young adult is assembled.

Second, behavioural scientists have been far too simplistic in their explanation of human behaviour. We are more than the aggregate of our experiences. We are more than the quality of our nutrition. We are more than our genetic heritage. We are more than our biochemistry. And certainly, we are more than our parents' influence. We are unique individuals, capable of independent and rational thought that is not attributable to any source. That is what makes the task of parenting so challenging and rewarding. Just when you think you have your kids figured out, you had better brace yourself! Something new is coming your way.

my very humble and personal opinion is,I don't think that they produce better children.. but its more of the up bringing of the children that give them an edge over the other parents who might be less educated and earning less...

2008-12-25T09:51:00.003+08:00

i would like to wish all christians a merry christmas..
and a happy holiday to all the non-christians..

haha.. the reason why i'm blogging now is because,i'm on leave! haha.. a week leave is truly what i need to get my resting time which is well deserved..

been going in and out of the gym lately.. working out my muscles and doing cardio exercises.. the supplements fron ultimate nutritions is the bomb man.. it really makes you feel like an animal.. since it's called the "animal-pak".. i guess it really lives up to it's name.. you'll feel energetic about 1 hour after you pop in the pills.. like a caged animal raring to go,you won't want to live the gym.. instead,you'll enjoy the blood flowing through your muscles.. it feels like a pump.. and your skin feels like it's about to burst out.. that's how i felt.. but i won't wanna be a body builder.. they're big bodied.. but with a small head.. haha..

it's been a wonderful week.. met shawty 2 days in a row.. yesterday and the day before yesterday.. i sent her home after work on the first meet.. and we watch the pochong movie from indonesia at the library yesterday.. well,the movie wasn't scary enough to freak her out.. maybe i should do a research about the most horrifying,scarying,spooky,hair-raising horror movie around.. i'm not sure,but i think the old school horror movie is way better than those current ones.. agree? any suggestions,anyone? sent her home after that,since the library is open till 5pm on the eve of christmas.. we had ice-cream along the way.. it's been awhile since i enjoyed a stick of paddlepop's rainbow ice-cream... and as usual,we had our good laugh through our walk home...

i think i'm beginning to like taking pictures.. but i DEFINITELY needs to improve my smile.. i look kinda retarded.. haha..

I love you so much.. I love you for your kindness, for your caring and giving nature, for your beauty - both inner and outer, and most of all I love you because you are you.. The fact that you show me who you really are and not what you think I may want.. (",)

i just did a quiz on facebook.. the "What kinda bf/gf you will end up with" quiz.. haha.. and here's my result!

you're going to end up with a really sexie bf/gf :)
You really know what love is and really care bout everything your mate is going to have :)

2008-12-23T12:04:00.002+08:00

"Baby girl I have my eyes on you,
Hopin that one day I can flip the pies on you"

2008-12-18T12:50:00.003+08:00

if you're sick of me,tell me when to......

Dreams are sequence images, sounds and feelings experienced while sleeping, particularly strongly associated with rapid eye movement sleep. The contents and biological purposes of dreams are not fully understood, though they have been a topic of speculation and interest throughout recorded history. The scientific study of dreams is known as oneirology...

but now i hate to dream.. good dreams don't usually come true.. neither do bad ones.. but it feels shitty when you dream of something good but it didn't happen.. i swear i won't want to even dream of something again.. i just wanna see the colour green in my dream.. it don't matter if it's just a wall.. i just wanna wake up from my sleep without even starting to think.. god,if i'm lying,please snatch my breath away,today..

2008-12-12T17:08:00.002+08:00

haha.. look at my hair.. it's out of style cause i just finished preparing the boat.. even the wax dried off.. haha! team Delta,i love you! (",)

six more month to ORD!! haha.. and 1 1/2 year to school term.. (",)

2008-12-09T21:13:00.001+08:00

2nd round of supplements that has just arrived at my place!

2008-12-09T10:23:00.003+08:00

cool,ain't it?

i really like one of Doug Norton's quote in which he wrote:

"While seeking revenge, dig two graves - one for yourself."

2008-12-05T11:21:00.004+08:00

my friend,fadzly,recently bought an i-touch..
and obviously,i am very much jealous over that.. even sean has it.. grrrrr!
sean,borrow me for a year can? haha..

okiez.. after paying the cash and having to wait for a long period of time.. i have finally received the 4 tickets to underwater world,sentosa! anyone wanna go along with me? do contact me ya.. i believe there's alot of goodies provided with the tickets.. there's luge and sky ride.. refreshments.. butterfly park and the dolphin lagoon.. oh.. i wanna visit the wax museum,too!

oh.. anyone free on either the 16th or 17th,this month? cause i got a spare ticket for the movie "bolt".. snacks on me.. do contact me.. :)

"Sky-Ride"
"The Luge"